Ugh…
*The poem at the bottom of the post makes more sense if you read the newsletter*
Took me a month to come back and add to this. In all fairness, all my writings, projects and photography took a backseat the last three months. Hunter takes up a lot of my time with his cute baby snuggles. Grad school took up a decent chunk and sleep got the rest.
He’s so worth it!
Now, I’m back to work and getting my time management skills back. Hunter is in daycare and getting some much needed socialization. I feel a little guilty that I don’t feel bad/miss my kid when I drop him off. However, I love when I pick him up and he smiles real big when he recognizes my voice and sees me.
I’ve been following a lot of mom blogs, vlogs, pages, and TikTok’s for support, ideas, and self esteem betterment. Luckily, I’m finding a lot of mom’s like me and that makes me feel better. Finding a supportive network makes all the difference.
Plus, my husband is awesome (except for a few hiccups). I did want to punt him or at least spike his food and drinks with caffeine or something. About a week ago we were getting ready for bed/last feeding of the night. Wade hollered at the cat who was messing around in the bedroom which started to wake up Hunter. I was showing Wade a video and then went to the bathroom. I was in there less than two minutes. Hunter was starting to fuss, so I poked my head back into the bedroom to ask my hubby to grab and change him in order to calm him back down/keep him asleep. I thought he was *just* a watching a video and would grab him.
I ran downstairs to grab a bottle of formula- at the *midnight* feed I give formula and pump in order to build up my supply and because it helps him sleep longer. With the water going I couldn’t hear upstairs. As soon as I turned off the faucet I could hear Hunter crying and beginning to wail.
*What’s that man doing to my baby! It’s only a diaper change…*
I came back up the stairs to Hunter still in his bassinet, Wade *still* watching a video… or so I thought. The man fell asleep.
In less than two minutes.
And couldn’t hear the baby wailing less than six feet away.
By this point Hunter was wide awake, demanding food, and needing a new diaper.
It took me nearly two hours to get him calmed down and back to sleep.
I wanted to pour ice water on Wade’s side of the bed.
I went to sleep angry and woke up angry (mainly because it was less than two hours). Wade asked me what was wrong and I unloaded on him. I felt a little bad but the sleep deprivation was getting to me and I was jealous.
Once I got it off my chest, Wade said he was sorry. Then we got to laughing at how easy it is for him to fall asleep and stay asleep.
Something that made this even funnier… *and makes me want to spike him with uppers for a few days*
We got a puppy for Christmas. The poor thing is being kennel trained and because of the other dog and the cat she sleeps in it at night. The second night we had her she got to whining around three in the morning.
Guess who could hear the poor puppy whining in her kennel downstairs and felt bad enough to go sleep on the floor with her until she fell asleep? And then complained the next day about the lack of sleep and how tired they were…
My husband *insert evil eye*…
I love the man to death but I did want to strangle him that day. I might reenact this for a TikTok…we’ll see…
*This was also posted on my Patreon https://www.patreon.com/BJRoshone *
Haiku for you:
Sleep calls loudly dear
The baby calls louder still
But you don’t hear, jerk.